Pain is pain even without a heart

Writer's Block: Wild Life

2009-04-28T12:59:31Z

How long could you survive on your own in the wild?

Umm a few weeks. I'm not bad at finding water. Thank you reading obsession. Food would be the hardest part. Oh and fire. So a few weeks. Unless it's arctic @_@ then ten minutes.

It's really late/early

2009-04-07T09:13:02Z

I'm very tired/persistent.
See also:pissed
See also: abandoned

I need to find this story that I fell in love with over the summer.

It's about a mutant and blah. I'm to lazy to explain.
Copy pasta is hard work kids.
It's like the story vanished.
if anyone knows of a story bout a girl named Kookie/Blight help meeee.

Looks like it's late and i'm persistent.
I found it.
Lucky me. One of my favorite stories everrrrrr.
Gonna cuddle up and read it til school starts.

Time

2009-03-17T18:26:04Z

@&!(#$)@*& doesn't have enough. They used to have bountiful time, for me. Now I'm feeling afterthought like. Seriously a few hours. We've never done a few hours. But now I'm taking backseat.

I'm not gonna act like it's a huge deal and I need to slit my wrists. But ^*(^#$@#% could have at least been honest about why I'm taking backseat. With eyes sewn shut I would've been a little less against this change. =/

Untitled feelings leave familiar marks 1/?

2007-12-02T05:34:25Z

Spanish II was my third period on Bdays. I loved and hated this class. Iahd a lot of good friends in their. Even a crush. Not just a crush, a crush that was my friend. I looked forward to that class. More than that actually. I planned my day around that class. Zel was his name. He was cool with me being bi so I took him as a friend. He flirts, a lot. Those were the best moments of my day.

They made me feel special. Like I really was desirable. But afterwards I fely dirty. I wasn't his, he wasn't mine. he had a girlfriend. I shouldn't flirt with him. I should just let it go. If he wanted me he knew I was bi. I wouldve have gone with him in the beat of a heart. But he decided to just flirt making me more dirty more corrupt.

I wanted him to either never flirt with me again, ask me out already and stop killing me slowly. I couldv'e gotten that easily, and I knew it. I never had the courage to just tell him to stop and that I liked him so doing that just makes my feelings fluctuate and hurt me in the end.

I just wanted him to be mine, or toquit making me want him so much. He was my guilty pleasure. I shouldn't have tried to get him. I should have just protected myself from all the pain. But I didn't.

Authors notes:
I decided to do this because it will make a good story. I will constantly be modifying until I am proud of it so when its finished you will reread a very different story

Yearbook siggy

2007-10-28T00:41:22Z

Looking at my yearbook. Lookie what I found

Hi Jade you are the
sexiest MAN Alive.
Youre...too sexy for your
shirt too sext to sexy.
Mwah Kissy Kissy
*heart* *heart* Cant wait to
be together finally
next year
*Heart* Her Name
P.S. FEED THE BIRD
+ Poosie power!!!/ Penis power

Gonna get it back

Something Wicca this way comes.....again 2/??

2007-10-27T19:43:45Z

Authors notes; I’m actually liking writing this chapter. Enjoy. Dani =Danielle from chapter 1

Chapter 2

The house we were in for the party was mine. After the clean up it was just me, Zel, and Joe. We went back up to the attic and flipped through the book. "You know what this means right." I ask them sitting with the book in my lap. Joe speaks up "That we can kick major ass now." "Speak for yourself" Zel quips. "Our lives are changed forever. We will always be hunted. But whatever Ill worry about this later" I say sliding the book away from me. Zel picks it up and places it on its stand. "So when do your parents get home." Zel flirts. I hate when he does that. I like him a lot and know he’s straight, and him knowing I like him even a little makes me hate it when he falsely flirts.

I didn't want to answer him. A shifty look got into my eyes. "They are away for the weekend you guys can sleep over if you want." I offer. Joe says yes right away. Zel pulls out his cell phone and punches in a number and leaves the room. "Dad. I’m going to spend the night at my friends house is that okay." It gets quiet. "Cool. Alright then bye" It gets quiet again. I and Joe sit there for a minute when the door bell rings. "Hello" We hear Zel say and then a scream. "Showtime" Joe says rocketing out of the room.

We reach downstairs and see Dani standing over Zel. He is bleeding badly. Joe looks at the door to see a green creature waltzing into the room. "Over there." I jump down the stairs and throw my hands up as a tongue makes its way towards me. I open my eyes to see a tongue two inches from my throat. The tip is pointed and looks sharp. "Holy-" I begin before Dani pipes in. "Jade why do you have that power. You should have the premonitions." Zel wakes up "Actually I have premonitions and Joe can move things." Jade I step away from the tongue "Hello can we focus a little, almost died." Joe "What do we do." Dani "Impale him. His demonic essence will seep out and he will die." I pick up a knife from the floor and Throw it at the demon. I miss. "Joe levitate it over there." Joe squints his eyes at the knife and it flies into the demons back. It instantly unfreezes and reaches for its wound only to explode shooting green goop everywhere.

Zel stands looking at the goop grotesquely. "They don’t ever just die do they?" He shakes a little off but that doesn't change his overall appearance.

"I have a lot of extra clothes you can take a shower." I look at Dani and she stands and begins to speak. I freeze her. "She's in on this to. Gah my world is consumed" I unfreeze her and she looks around quizzically before attempting to explain things. "Save it. I got enough things on my mind at the moment." It came out harsher than I intended but the point got across.

I went to my room and got a few clothes so I could take a shower. I entered the bathroom and begin to strip. When I finish taking my shirt off I turn to see Zel standing in just a towel next to me. He was getting dressed and I blushed hugely. "Oh I'm so sorry I didn't know you were still in here. The shower was off so I assumed" I am half way out of the door when he grabs my shoulder and pulls me back. "Its ok calm down. I'm already done so you go ahead." He removes the towel and I avert my gaze out of embarrassment. "Its ok I’m wearing boxers. Y'know I thought you would actually like to be seeing this" He says pulling the jeans he's borrowing from me up and over his slender hips. I turn and slug him in the arm. "I'm not that big of a pervo." I shout hotly.

Joe enters to see me us with our shirts off standing very close. "It's not what it looks like" I defend. "Hey it’s your life live it your way" He says with a smile. I usher them both out forcefully and take a hot shower in peace. "Stupid Zel. Damn didn't get to see anything" I mutter to myself in the shower.

I lost all hope but Can't give up yet.

2007-10-27T00:20:00Z

I can't control anything you do
But I sincerely have decided to ask you to
Forgive me today on the condition that
You will trust me to get us where we were at

Ill change my ways so you will see
The person that you thought I'd be
Not the fake that you saw of me
That I no longer wish to be

I dont want to continue this way
Acting as if I've nothing to say
When my mind races with words and thought
That never seem to go where they ought
Into your ears to open your eyes
TO show you how much I've tried

If I give in before I get us back
I know I will break down and yuo'll see the act
Your ignorance of me has broken down
So far you can hear the sound
Of my perceptions crashing down

Broken and bruised
I must refuse
to give you up over this fight
That I started accidentally one night

I didnt mean what ur ugly
I meant youre adorable
No longer hot, not my crush
Just a close friend that made me blush

You know me enough to know i make some mistakes
I just didnt know that those words could take
Something as sweet as you and me
And twist and contort til insanity
Sets in and cause my pain
This started as mist and is now emo-rain[its a stretch]

So i leave to you the power inside
To stay where we are or come for the ride
The ride to where we can get us back
I know i dont deserve it but I must attack
At the chance for the girl who has changed my life
Has opened my mind and lowered my strife

I end it now and with little fear
that you will decide what to do my dear
Wheteher it hurts or is amazingly great
Its the right choce to make, for you anyway

End
Hard to end these poems lately. Just wanna keep going.

Wrong way Love

2007-10-26T02:05:13Z

From my point of view. Random feelings flared during spanish 2 class.

Love or death just a flip of the coin.

Its automatic
what I feel for you
But your loves like static
I dont know what it'll do

I can't control that I'm bi
And you can't control that youre straight
But sometimes I want to die
Because yuo make me irate

"Te amo" I love you
Why say it to me
I want to say I love you two
But then that would mean

That you'd have my heart all broken and scarred
That I can't stop likeing the way you are
That I have never blushed for a guy before
Never felt that I could soar
Into the sky and fly so high
That falling would mean I'd have to die

Keep your love away it's poisoning me
I want true love is that so hard to see
I have enough friends come to me as more
Or are you rubbing salt into my bleeding sore

Break my heart do it now and do it fast
I don't know how much longer I can stand to last
Dont touch me or even look my way
Until youve worked up the courage to say

"I'm threw with these games I want you for real
I just had to work out how I truly feel
I see you're in need of a lover like me
To help you when you're hurt and be your company
I will be there for you, no need to ask
I will be there always from first to last"

I will fly high on love or I will die more inside
I hate to say but its you who decides
You have the power my heart is in chains
And sadly for me its yuo with the reigns

So choose now the road that you'll go down
Caress me with love or drown me with sound
The sound of my heart breaking over you
Because with me you decided to be through
I can live or I can die but only inside
You'll never see it not even in my eyes
I'll hide it from you and the rest of the world
Keep it inside to fester and swirl
Until it comes out unrefined and unchained
When I'll be forced to cry out your name
Tell you to run stay away from me
I do this my dear only out of safety

I fear my time is not long
So I bid yuo adieu
I'm done with this song
Now its all up to you...

Darryl X Leo Chapter 4

2007-09-12T05:46:40Z

POV third person that's how I roll
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters of the story but I own the relationships.
Summary: Darryl starts to question himself.

Darryl awakes with a start to find he is on the couch. He feels confused and rubs his stomach placatingly. He starts to remember bits and pieces of his dream and questions himself. Why the hell did I do that? What's happening? Am I gay? He shakes the thoughts from his head as he gets up and looks out onto the balcony. it is early morning and it seems like it might rain.

He slowly walks to the bathroom and on the way see's Leo is in his bed in nothing but tight grey boxerbriefs. His eyes automatically look at Leo's butt. Mentally scolding himself he walked into the bathroom and quickly brushed his teeth and washed his face.

Continue tomorrow Have World history Pre Ap homework gah.

MCR Bandaid Part 3

2007-09-12T05:32:17Z

POV: Jade's for once
Disclaimer: I only own Jade because noone else can own me. Everything else is blah blah blah no mines. Except for the idea of what's happening.
Summary: Hmm well Jade runs away with Gerard and the band is on a litle break. So let's have some fun.
HEYYY:Oh and I would like some feed back. I usuallly am the bottom in my stories but I feel like I pretty much HAVe to top Gerard. Y'know. I don't know it will be kinda strange being the top for him but let's see.

Chapter 3 [Can't believe i haven't updated in two weeks comments are lovely.

We lay in the back of my car just talking about the randomest things. Gee just kept telling me stories of things he has done. i am mesmerized by the way he talks, like he's just so out of there. But he soon turns and lays on his side and asks me about myself.

"Well hmm. I'm bi." I begin. He chuckles and I swear he seems to morph into a little kid. "I have done a lot of things. i have regretted a lot of things," he seems so enthralled in what I'm saying I chuckle at his innocence. "Most of things I regret involve Sex. But don't worry I'm clean" I add.

I hop into the front and he climbs over and repositions himself and I drive to a park. "Wow park's must be your obsession huh?" He asks me with that smile that makes me feel like I have to be with him. I laugh to myself and answer, "Yah. It's easier to think when I can get out of my big boy pants and be a kid again." He walks up behind me and wraps his thin but surprisingly strong arms around my waist. "I like the sound of getting you out of you pants" he begins kissing my neck. I feel a weakness take over me and my heart kinda stops fluttering. I shake it off and laugh a little uncomfortably. I go and sit on the swings and start to, what else swing. I look over to see him going down the slide and running back up them only to slide down once again. I feel my heart begin to get "that feeling" again. It is perfect.

I start to swing slower and slower until i notice my hand something wet hits my hand. I look to the sky and see there is no rain thats when I see Gee walking over to me and he looks concerned. I suddenly feel strange as if I'm not in my own body. "What's wrong" he asks me as he wipes something from my eye. When his hand touches me it feel ssoo cold. I feel my eye is tearing and my cheeks are hot. "I i don't know" I wipe my eyes and squint to keep the rest from coming out.

I pull my phone out and see i have about 50 Txtx and a lot of missed calls. Gerard does the same and seems to be missing quite a few as well. "I guess we have to go back to life." he says. i groan and voice the things that have been in my mind for a while. "Take me with you. I don't want to stay here. This was my last try. I have been nothing but a great friend to her. One mistake and she flips out on me. I can't do that. I have done that to two people in my life and hated myself for it. Carolyn, and Daphne. I forgave them because I just couldn't do it" I notice the tears are flowing freely. "Gah" I say trying to wipe them. He puts his arms around me and I just breathe and let my mind stay blank. He is talking to me trying to console me. "It's just becuae you have a big heart dude. Don't worry nothing like that will happen again." I try to argue. "Not big enough. I hurt her. Enough to where she believed I wasn't worth keeping." "truth is, everyone is going to hurt you, You just have to choose who's worth the pain" he says which comforts me to some degree. I still feel the tears are waiting for their chance to escape but I bite my lip and force them back with all my might.

"Here let's get going. I think It's time me and my band talked about the new arrangement." I tossed him my keys and got in the car.

MMKaY. Comments are lovely and I just feel so inspired to continue. I think I'm going to make Frank have a problem with Jade or maybe someone else. Hmm lets see.

The bolds are parts I wrote but were on accident. Falling into plaze maybe.

Darryl X Leo 3

2007-08-27T00:00:20Z

Darryl is getting dressed and ends up in a white button down shirt along with blue jeans that are a little tight on his waist.   "Geez what size does Leo wear. At least my ass has room" He says sitting down. His world was spinning. He couldn't be a witch. He has been human all his life. His parents aren't witches. Are they?

As his head is about to explode with all these thoughts Leo orbs in. Darryl looks up and Leo flies back. Right before he hits the wall he orbs out and orbs back to his original position. "Whoa calm down. You can't just throw that power around." Leo says worried. Darryl is speechless. Leo comes and sits next to him and puts an arm around Darryl's shoulders. This comforts Darryl and allows him to relax and lean back. "A witch was attacked by a demon that was after her powers. That witch was a halliwell descendant.  A male witch that had his power stripped by a demon. BUt right before his powers were stripped he said a spell that caused them to go to you." Leo was calm and waied for a reaction.

Darryl stood and rubbed the back of his neck as he left the room. Tears streamed from his eyes slowly but surely. He wasn't the type to think of the here and now. He thought more of the future. I can't have kids now. they will be hunted just like I will. I will be hunted. Even if I could go back to my wife how can I promise to protect her. I can't be normal anymore. Look at the sisters' lives. He went into the room where he had slept and laid down and let the tears fall silently.

Outside the door Leo listened to his friend toss and turn. He needed to be there for him. after all he was his new whitelighter. Leo walked in the room and tried to lend some comforting words. "It's not that bad. Yo uhave powers. you can use to help you become a better cop. You willl help fight the good fight. There are many things you can do now that you could never do before" Darryl didn't answer he just rolled and faced away from Leo and pulled the covers above his head. Leo really didn't know what to do so he just left.

Darryl stayed that way for 3 days. Hardly leaving the bed, only for the bathroom and for a little drink of water and to shower. Leo was there everytime and saw his puffy red eyes. He tried to plead with Darryl but all Darryl would say is "I rather be alone" So he would retreat back to the room and cry some more.   Leo didn't know what to do so he did the only thing that made sense, he went to him.

Leo entered the room and there was Darryl in baby blue boxers and nothing else wrapped up in the covers. Leo pulled his shirt up and over his head. Unbuckling his belt he quickly wiggled out of his pants. Standing there in Just his black boxerbriefs that hugged his sizeable ass oh so nicely his got under the cover and wrapped one arm around Darryl's Waist and just lay there. Darryl flinched at the touch of Leo's cool skin but silently accepted the kind gesture from a friend. Darryl turned over and looked Leo in the eyes. "Thanks." Was all he said before Snuggling up to Leo's chest. The tears had stopped he felt better. He wasn't alone anymore.

Darryl began to feel things that were til this moment Alien to him. He felt like gently caressing Leo. Being sweet and Tender with him. Darryl slid up the bed and had Leo asleep on his chest. Darryl gently placed hi hand on leo's soft and supple cheeks. Leo sucked in air briefly but seemed to still be sleeping. Darryl was becoming quite hard again and so was Leo. Darry lcouldn't tell if he was awake so he decided to test it. Stepping out of the bed he took off his boxers and let his erection bobble in the wind as he walked around to the otherside of Leo. Darryl propped his boner against Leo's soft cheeks and wrapped his arm around Leo's side. He rubbed Leo's abs first which elicited small moans from him but soon grew impatient. Darryl reached a hand into Leo's boxers and found Leo was just as hard as he was. Stifling a chuckle he swallowed hard as he fished out Leo's boner.

Leo moaned a little as Darryl squeezed and jerked his manhood. He got back on the other side of Leo in a 69 position and decided to go for it. Darryl opened his mouth and inserted the head of Leo's cock into his mouth. Leo was awoken to the sensation of a hot and wet mouth on his cock and could swear it was just a dream way too good to be true. He looked down and was shocked to see Darryl the one doing these things to him. He noticed Darryl's Huge cock in his own face and grabbed it. Darryl looked up surprised but Leo just put a hand on the back of his head to get him to continue. Leo put the head of Darryl's long cock in his mouth and went as far down as 5 inches.  He sucked on it for a little before coming back up.

"Don't you think you should wine and dine me first" He is breathing really fast and Darryl know's he was close to climax. Darryl reversed his position so there faces were close together. "Y;know i've always loved that smile of yours" Darryl says seductively as he pulls Leo into a long kiss and puts his hands on Leo's nice and juicy ass.

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Yes they are so totally having real sex in at most two chapters.

How I really feel

2007-08-25T23:37:15Z

Underneath the nice tight body. Behind all the lies I have told. I have feelings to. I swallow them down to make others happy and now it's time I just puke out my soul.

I love Vicky Kha so fucking much and the fact that she could just cut me off like that makes me want to just nuclear bomb everything. It fucking hurts me sooo much I feel guilty when I fake a smile around other people.

I feel like maybe I've changed myself and just haven't noticed. But no that's not it. I'm still the same ol' lovable Jade that helps everyone else and doesn't ask for a damn thing in return. Like I'm just here to help others and that i am not allowed to have problems.

Then mainly I feel like everyone cares about me soo fucking much and that worries me, makes me feel like if I mess up I'll fucking crash these people's worlds. I don't want to hurt people that's why I pushed my last boyfriend away. I knew he was too good for me. Now he's happy with some other man. I worry that people see the real me and are just standing there waiting for me to screw up.

I have friends but I still worry that I'm gonna somehow screw them over even if it's on accident. I don't want that.

I've only told this to two people. One broke up with me and the other broke away from me. I don't have any other friend's that I'm close enough to that I would expect to understand. I just really need someone to make me feel like "Hell yah I can do anything" And not like "I could try but only fail"

But seeing as that isn't happening any time soon. I'm just gonna go sit in my emo corner.

MCR bandaid No it doesn't end that way.

2007-08-25T06:39:16Z

POV: Still Gerard way
Summary: hmm well I'm not sure what will happen Lets find out together...but me first.

So we begin setting up to perform and Jade is busy typing furiosly away on his sidekick. Slowly the cars rolled in. More and more. People some older than would be expected, and some younger than I would thought he would know. I stalk over to him and he is still typing away. "Do you know all of these people?" I ask him in a barely there voice. "Yep. All the people I know that aren't out of state." I clap him on the back and sarcastically say "Because you're such a horrible person all these people actually came." He smiled a half smile before adding "Because it couldn't possibly be the band thats at the top of the charts right now." That sobered me up.

So we had set up and were just getting pumped. Jade was off to the side smoking another cig and hiding those eyes beneath his aviators. He must have noticed me staring over at him, because he flashed a smile and stomped his ciggy into the ground.

He walks over to the stage and I sit down on the edge. A rather skinny girl with a lot of hair walks over in here in a blue jeans and a MCR hoody. Tagging along is a black girl with long sholder length brown hair. As they walked over Jade put his hands on the back of my head and guided me into a kiss. The hispanic girl gasped and the black girl smiled a very toothy grin. He parts my legs and walks in between them. The girls stand there for a minute and he finally surfaces for air. "What can I say he's just so damn adorable" He says with a smile that seems to light up his entire face.

The black girl's smile doesn't falter and when they don't speak up he says "so yeah I feel a whole lot better now. Sorry Viri I know I've been an asshole and I'm soo happy you stood by me. Taylor" he turns from the hispanic girl to the black girl "Sorry." She hugs him and I feel pumped. "so guys enjoy the show I'll give my all" I say stealing one final kiss before running onto stage and playing "teenagers".

The crowd loved it and I started taking requests. I went through a lot of my old songs and at the end was exhausted. The rest of the band began to pack up and the crowd withered to nothing but Jade. Hannah, Taylor, Viri, and....Vicky. I had been eyeing her through the whole show wondering if she was actually thinking offorgiving my new boyfriend, but I couldn't tell anything except for the look of excitement on her face.

Jade pulls his hood up and walks away from the gathering a look of worry on his face "Lets go" the urgency i nhis voice scares me. "What where?" I ask putting my hands on his shuolders, he has started to shake. "Anywhere but here. Take me with you" He seems to crave me to be with him. "Don't you want to stay and see if she has forgiven me-" "NO! I can't even imagine what it would be like if we were friends again. And if she doesn't forgive me now I will just die." I feel him almost buckle and fall so I wrap my arms around his back in an embrace. All his weight slacks onto me and that's when I feel just how light he really is.

He regains his posture and I sling an arm around his shulders as he puts his shades back on and his hood up. We are about to head back to his car when Mikey grabs my arm. "Hey bro what are we about to do?" He asks eyeing Jade. I knew Jade couldn't stand any extra attention so I hurriedly say "I'm going out to eat with our client while yuo guys pack up and do whatever the hell you want." I turn quickly and Jade passes me the keys. He gets in the passenger side and reclines his head back.

"So what do you want to eat" I ask him starting up the car as I see his friends were walking this way. Before they can get here though I peel out and am halfway down the street. He seems to roll the question around in his head before leaning his head my way and whispering "You." He leans over and nibbles on my ear. "Unggh. Hmm yuo might wanna stop before I fucking crash." He smiles and lets go.  I find a McDonalds. "Well you only live once" he kids and we order about 8 cheeseburgers and 6 orders of fries. We ride around for a little and find an empty lot. So climbing into the back we stow all theseats and just lay there getting fat.

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Was gonna be a oneshot but now I like it way too much. I mmight switch POV's for the next chapter I'm not sure.

MCR bandaid

2007-08-24T17:13:32Z

POV Gerard Way
Pairings: NO idea let's see what happens shall we?
Summary: Hmm well Jade does something amazing and unexpected.
Diclaimer: I don't own all of the characters in this story. It's mainly the way brothers but the rest of MCR is still there. So yah.

Chapter 1 possibly only one .

I watched as he pulled out a cigarette and lit it with shaking fingers. "So what are we supposed to be doing?" I ask him. Putting his aviator shades on he calmly says "You're going to be hanging out with a friend of mine. Small party. She's a huge fan. Well Come on let's go into the car." He says as he walks back around his black range rover. Something about this kid seemed to rob me of all my energy and he seemed to be distracted.

We climbed into the car and he revved the engine. "My name's Jade by the way" he adds while driving down the highway. I look in the rear view mirror and notice Mikey gesturing for me to stake him in the heart. I let out a small chuckle at this and it seems to catch his attention. He throws his cigarette out of the window as he takes off his shades.

I finally get to see into his gaunt brown eyes up close. On the outside he looks weary and I am shocked at what i see. Myself. He is the type of person that lights up any situation. The person that's gittery and energetic for others amusement. Something horrible had to happen for him to change into whatever the hell he is now. He notices me looking "Yah, whats up" he asks very distractedly. "Oh nothing just thinking." I say to end the akward conversation.

I suddenly hear a buzz coming from his pocket. He pulls out a sidekick and looks at it for a second. "Hannah di you get her there? " he asks the person on the other end. "Really? Good this has to all go perfect. So I'm almost there keep her busy for 10 minutes. Okay bye" He closes it and hangs up.

HE picks up his pack of cigs again and I see that this kid really just needs a helping hand. "Yoou know those things are deadly right" I say mischieviously. "Well It's better than what I used to smoke. Let me tell you Coke is no Joke" he laugs at this joke but it just makes this car ride more morbid and depressing than it already was. I just piped down and waited for this hell to end.

We arrived at the house and for a second just sat there. He pulled out his sidekick and typed something reallly fast. "Ok lets go" He says and puts his aviators back on. We all shuttled out of the car as a young asain girl with black hair came out of the house with another girl with blinde hair. They both looked to be about 17 and ecstatic. Being the performer I am I had to keep up my image. So I swept my hair back and ran over their nearly bowling them over as I give them a heavy hug. "AAAAAGGGHH" The asain one screams in I'm hoping happiness. She looked genuinely happy for me to be here. "Ah a fan's love does the heart good" I say and she and her friend laugh.

She then hugs her friend roughly. "Oy my god Hannah I can't believe you got me MCR for my birthday" she says ecstatically I am about to ask but Hannah interrupts. "Well that's good because I didn't. It was another friend" She says this and I look back. Jade was standing there with a slanted smile. "Happy Birthday Vicky" his voice sounds so far away and TImid. I am shocked by it. She looks at him with a cruel indifference I can tell she has used quie often. "Just one of the crowd" she mutters before storming back into the house. I look back at Jade and I can't tell what he is feeling. He sighs and turns away from us. He sighs again very heavily and starts walking. Thats when Mikey chirped in "Are we still getting paid" He asks me. I run by him trying to catch up with Jade and slug him. Jade has entered a full sprint and it is nearly impossible to keep up with him. He runs straight across a busy intersection as if he doesn't know anything of what is around him. He continues for a little ways before entering a elementary schools park.

I enter the park to find him laying there on the monkey bars with his hood up. He is tapping out the rythm to our old song Helena. "So you're a fan I see"   I say walking over to him. "mhm" he hums to me. I climb up and sit next to him. "Sooo" I feel really akward. "Yes You're still getting paid" he spits angrily as he sits up and turns away from me. "I wasn't going to say that. I wwas going to ask what happened' I ask him in my spacy voice that makes people comfortable. He stayed quiet for a long time before finally clearing his throat and began his story.

"So me and Vicky used to be really good friends. NOt that I knew this by the way. I thought I was just another friend in the crowd. You understand?   Just there not truly important." I begin to get interested. "BUt apparently I was actually one of her few really close friends. So one night I tell her that she has changed a lot since when I first met her. So she gets all pissed and says I should be happy since I'm such a loser and she's so amazing. Sarcastically of course. Which mad me feel like What the fuck. I wa your friend when you were reading during lunch. Sure it was because she was cute at the start but then it was purely for personality." He is ery emotional about this part. But taking a breathe his voice calms. "The firstyear of this I was just quiet and hoped things would fix themselves. The next year I did everyhing I could to try and be her friend again. So now I thuoght if theres one thing that would make her forgive me it would be this. Getting her favorite band from forever to come and hang/play for her.   But it didn't work" I can tell he is at sobbing point and I needed to make up something to make him happy but sadly my brain had left the building.

"She is right though. I hate to admit it, but I know she's right. i'm a horrible person. My first good relationship ended with him telling me "You're a great guy it's just when you're dating you seem different in a bad way" I brushed it off. I mean come on I was his first boyfriend." He's gay? Wow I might be able to cheer him up after all. He continued "Then my next boyfriend was a fucking godsend. More than I ever expected I could get and he summer he came to visit me he broke up with me. I had let myself go. I didn't really want to ruin his life with me so I just told him straight up that I think he can do better, he was denying it for a while but eventually gave in and got another boyfriend. I am soo happy for him" HE was lost in his thoughts when I slapped him soo hard I could swear I heard bone cracks. He looked at me astonished that I had the balls to do that. "You are fucken sexy. Have a heart big enough to buy a band for a friend who hasn't talked to you for two years. And are really making me hot" I lean in and kiss him. At first he seems as if he'll resist but soon he leans into me and kisses back. his kisses set me on fire "Remember I'm a rockstar so my kisses are not something I just hand out everyday." I say acting as important as I am. "Hey you kissed me" he says finally wiping the tears from his eyes. He runs his fingers through his chinlength hair and pushes it out of his eyes.

"So what are you gonna do now" He asks me with puppydog eyes that seem to almost be accidental. "Well have yuo graduated from high school?" I ask so I know my options. "Yah last year."   I get excited and jump off of the monkey bars. "Well I'm going to take my new boyfriend with me everywhere I go" I say as he comes down and I sling an arm over his shoulders. "whoa whoa whoa who Said I was your boyfriend? " he playfully snipes. "Jade will you go out with me" I ask bowing down and waiing for a reply. "Gladly but I don't want to call you Gerard no offence but it's too proper for me soo I'm gonna call you gee" [gee like greek] I nod to this and we slowly walk back to Vixky's house. "So what are you gonna do" I doubted I'd get a good answer. "Wing it" he proved me right.

We are back on the lawn and all my bandmates are just sitting around. "What the hell are you guys doing?" I question them and they all just shrug. "Well aren't we here to perform" i ask trying to get them hyped. "Well then Lets dig in.

DarrylXLeo 2/??

2007-08-24T05:03:15Z

So here's chapter 2
I've decided to make it from Darryl's POV

I awoke with my usual morning hardon but what was unusual was that my arm was around Leo, with my hardon pressing into his nice and warm ass. I feel energyless and for a second almost feel like jus leaving it there. But sighing heavily I cautiously remove my arm and turn away from him.

I pull the cover from myself and sit up. I find that I have more morning wood than I thought. I scratch my chest and get up from the bed. Stretching out I yawn quietly to myself. I notice I am starving but ignore it for now. I exit the room and head back into the living room to find all my clothes are gone. I head back to the room and search through Leo's dresser drawer and find some baby blue boxer briefs with a dark black wastband. "I hope he doesn't mind" I say throwing them my shuolder. I go out into the hallway and easily find the bathroom.

Turning the hot water on I get a towel off of the towel rack. Exiting my boxers I look into the full length mirror. I look over my washboard ebony abs, past my toned calfs and thighs, over my nice package which still hadn't gone down and into my eyes. I look like a ghost of my formal self. My eyes looked sunken in and for some reason still red. It hurt to see me this way and I knew I had to change it. Feeling my shower to see if it has wormed up I step in gingerly.

Feeling the hot water run down my skin relazed my muscles. The steam rising seemed to calm my mind. I stood for a good half hour just relaxing but feeling my mind slowly drift back into me caused me to begin washing. Once I was done I dried off and put on the boxers hat fit, hmmm snugly. I find my toothbrush next to his and procede to brush my teeth. Passing Leo's room I notice he is still fast asleep. So as he snoozes softly my stomach growls at me. Patting it I say "Down tiger. Guess i ought to see what Leo has to eat."

I enter his kitchen which is pretty well stocked. I find an apron that says "Kiss the cook". Chuckling to myself I imagine actually kissing Leo. But shaking the thoughts from my mind I put the apron on and begin cooking. I pull out some eggs 3 potatoes and some bacon. Breaking the eggs I put them in a bowl with salt and pepper. I lay out the bacon and begin baking it. I whisk the eggs quickly and begin slicing the potatoes. After throwing them in a skillet to begin making the hashbrowns I put the eggs in a pot. I quickly end up with scrambled eggs.

"Hmmm what's cooking?" Leo asks entering the kitchen rubbing his eyes. I notice he is wearing nothing but a pair of white boxer briefs and his body is pretty toned. "Well Bacon is almost done. Hashbrowns and eggs are ready if you're interested." I say in a surprisingly cheery mood. He seems to weigh the options before pulling out a stool and just sitting at the counter watching me. He seemed tired. "You okay Leo" i queation him out of worry. He looks into my eyes. "Yeah I'm fine just a long night of fighting the good fight." Leo lies to me I can tell but I decide to just drop it for now.

"Smells like the bacon's done. I hope you like it crisp" I say as I pull the tray out with all the crispy bacon. The smell is heaven and I fix myself a plate and Leo's as well Setting them down, I pull up a stool and dig in.   Leo laughs to himself and I look at him quizzically. "Two muscular men eating breakfast in their boxers. This is soo gay" Leo laughs as he scarfs down some eggs. I laugh along and think, well at least he's here for me.

We put all off the dishes in the sink and Leo goes and get's dressed. Srepping out of his room in a white button down shirt and some blue jeans he let's me know that he's going to check on the rest of his charges and that he's only a yell away.   As he disappears I decide to watch some television. I am flipping through the channels when I decide to check and see if Leo has any good DVD's. I slide off of the couch and walk over to his DVD rack. "Titanic? Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire? Girls Gone wild????" i am shocked by the last one. I could never imagine Leo watching porn he always just seemed to be above that somehow.

Feeling the lack of sex take over I pop it into the dvd player. I lay down on the couch and eatch the opening scenes. After a few minutes "baby Darryl starts to stir. I rub hy dick a little trying to placate it without actually going all the way. Sadly though I am soon at my full thirteen inches. I pause the movie and run into the bothroom. Raiding the cabinets I soon find some lotion and hurry back to the couch and press play.  I pull down my boxer fronts and put them right under my balls to keep them down. I squirt some lotion onto my hand and begin to jack off. I start at the hed and slowly go down the shaft, playing with my balls all the while. I really get into it and am imagining myself with one of the brunettes in this video when Leo pops into my head. "what the" I say as I slow down and clear my thoughts. The scene changes to two redheads making out. i get really into it and am getting really close to bursting point when my mind wanders to me on top of Leo with him moaning into my ear. I burst before I can even think of what the hell that was. * stringy ropes of cum blast onto my chest and 4 onto my chin.

Wiping myself off I put my package away as I hear leo's voice "Big daddy Darryl looks like he made a mess" I look up and see Leo still wearing nothing but his boxers again. "Listen Leo I'm sorry i just really needed to cum y'know." I say getting up. leo looks around and suddenly morphs into another person. "Who are you" I ask jumping back a little shocked. "I'm your doom" he says calmly summoning a firball in his hand. Lights fly through a window and dance around me "What's happening" he asks but before I could answer he throws the fireball and the lights enter my body. I throw an arm up to block and the firebal rebounds and destroys the demon. "What the hell is going on" I ask myself.

"LEO!!" I yell and once I see the shimmering orbs Stand up. "Leo what's going on. Some demon a fireball it didn't even hit me." I try to speak clearly but it's all too much for me. Leo puts his arm on my shoulder and sits me down. His touch makes me close my mouth. "I want you to just breathe in and out okay" he almost whispers. I do as he says. "Okay, now tell me what happened?" I retell him the story and he listens stoicly. "Some other witches powers have been transferred to you. I'm not sure why but I believe the elders might have an idea. I'll go check in with the elders. You-get dressed" He said looking me up and down. He is about to orb out when he grabs a tissue and wipes something from my face. Oops missed one. I think before hurrying and getting dressed.

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End of chapter 2. NO idea what I'll do next but I know i need to open the door for darryl to get with Leo.

Darryl XLeo a charmed slash fic 1 of ??

2007-08-24T03:40:51Z

Watching charmed today caused my mind to wander so here's what happened.

I do not own these characters and blah blah blah. The characters are from charmed but the story is all my own. I will begin around the time that prue died and the piper and Leo have had a fight. hey I had to break them up somehow. But I will start on Darry'ls end.

Chapter 1

Darryl stood pleading to his would be wife. "I would never cheat on you" he pleads to her but she is throwing his clothes right out of the window. Her eyes are red and puffy. "We could have had a future together Darryl! We would have been so happy together but no you decide to run off with your partner, whatever her name is." She speaks in a surprisingly dignified manner. Slight sobs escape her as she leans on the window sill. Darryl in his blue skintight boxer briefs tries to bundle up his clothes. "I want to talk about this." He yells up to her. "There is no more talking Darryl. Goodnight" She screams shuting the windoe furiously. Darryl's mind raced. All the emotions and having no where to go right now.

"If only I had an angel" he whispers into the night as he gathers his clothes in his arms. Turning around he sees a swirl of blue orbs and out steps Leo. "Darryl I need your-" his eyes travel up and down the inspectors nearly nude body. "-I'm guessing yuo need more help" Leo says in a naturally calmed Tone. Darryl looks into Leo's icy blues from his own light brown eyes. "I-" Darryl begins but Leo shushes him and putting his right hand on darryls arm and wrapping the other around his narrow waist. Darryl could have sworn Leo's arm grazed his ass but he ignored it for now.  Leo orbs them to his apartment.

"Leo where are we" darryl asks while wiping tears away from his eyes. "Thats not important what happened to you" Leo is obviously concerned and goes to a corner and pats the floor beside him inviting darryl to come sit down. Darryl goes and sits next to Leo and for a second forces back tears.

Once he has calmed and taken a few breaths he begins. "Well I was out on a stakeout the usual affair when my partner tries to makeout with me. Now I'm not saying she's not a nice woman or anything" Darryl defends his co worker "-But I was only into my wife." Leo puts an arm around Darryl's shoulder and brings him close. Darryl continues, "And my wife had been following me. She had suspected something was up for a while. So when she saw that she went home and waited for me. She wore the lingerie I had bought her as an early wedding gift. So I was ready to go y'know. But that's when she kicked me out of the house in nothing but these boxers and threw all my things out of the window. She told me that she saw me making out with y slut" he seemed to laugh at this. Then he openedd up his right hand which had been tightly clenched the entire time. In it was a wedding ring "She gave it back. Decided that I wasn't trustworthy." Inspector morris was laughing freely now and soon his deep laughs turned into

Leo could feel the pain emanating from him, and knew he would have to push his problems aside and be here for his only friend. "Well I'm here for you. SO I'm telling you that you need your rest." Darryl looked at Leo and nodded. "The bed is in the second room on the right I'll be gone for a while, one of my charges is calling but if yuo need anything just yell my name." Leo says before disappearing in a swirl of shining lights.

Darryl looks around this pretty Expensive apartmeny. A big screen Tv. A nice white couch that reached from one corner of the apartment to another and wrapped aroun to almost frame the TV. Leo seemed to like white, a lot. His Tv was framed in white. His lamps had white lamp shades. HIs carpet was soft white. Darryl let out an involuntary chuckle. Feeling a slight chill Darryl really realizes he has been mostly naked this entire time. So scratching his crotch he goes to the room designated as his bedroom.   In it was a flat queen sized bed about crotch high from the floor. Darryl chuckled again looking at the big pouffy cover. Laying down flat on it he sighs a relaxed sigh.

"Come on Darryl you can't lose it now." He says rolling over and getting under the cover. "Have to keep it strong Can't give up on my love."  Feeling the days stress take him over he goes into an easy sleep.

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First chapter and no Leo is not gay...yet.  God you guys have no idea how hard it was not to make them screw!. Anyway I'm still feeling inspired so I'll start chapter 2 right now.

Gloves of power: chapter 2/??

2007-08-21T11:52:42Z

So I was forced to make a story last year and this is sort of what I made but more fleshed out and likeable
I like the idea i think ill redo it

Waking up groggily Jade finds himself in a bed. He had a headache that was causing blood to rush to his ears. Letting out a low guttural moan he sat up and rubbed his head, Sitting up he noticed he had soaked the sheets in his sweat. "Where Am I?": he asks himself as all the memories flooded his brain at once. From the floating man who pushed him off of a cliff to the strange vortex he fell into.

Before he could gather his thoughts a girl most likely a year his junior walked into the room. She had big brown eyes that seemed to reflect all the light in the room along with long brown hair thrown carefully over her shoulders. She stood at 5' 5" confidently striding into the room. She looks into a small wooden cabinet and pulled out a bucket. "So you're finally awake I see" she asks in a near high pitch voice that seemed to always want to fluctuate but resisted. He looked at her and tried to speak but his brain was running too fast for his mouth to keep up. "Wow you've soaked the sheets clean through...again" she stood with the bucket in hand and a voice that showed she was truly annoyed.

"You can speak can't you" she spoke with a suddenly eager voice. He cringed and she sighed. Turning briskly he finally works up the courage to force his mouth open. "Wait" he bursts pulling the cover up to cover up his exposed torso. It was the first time he noticed he was shirtless. "Where am I?" He asks plainly trying to get the main question out of the way. "Well you're in Laiecrow valley. My mom found you in the forest and brought you back here to our house to get better. You just rest I'll bring you some food. It was hard to feed you while you were sleep so I just waited till now." She says as she hurried from the room. "Wait how long have I been knocked out?" he yells but his question falls onto deaf ears as she is too far away.

Laying back down he ponders the thought that this could all be a really messed up dream that is until she walks into the room carrying bowl full of chowder into the room along with a nice little wooden chair. Pulling the chair close to the bed she began to try and feed him the chowder. "Come on eat. It's the only way you'll get better" she said as if she had the upper hand, he could tell she was enjoying it. Opening his mouth and when she put the spoon in he clamps down and jerks it out of her hand playfully. Sitting up he removes the spoon from his mouth and reaches for the bowl. "Thanks but I'm not a baby." he coldly retorts. He tastes the soup and realizes it's like potato soup with clams and cheese. Not gourmet but in his condition that wasn't a problem.

   "So what were you doing in those woods" she asks as he wolf down the soup greedily.   Scooping up two more spoonfuls he finally answers. "You wouldn't believe me if I told you" spoken so matter-of-factly. "Oh really? Why don't you just try me" she seems to dare him. Putting the spoon in the bowl and setting it down in his lap, he speculates if he really should. The heat warming his body makes him feel 10 times better. "Well i was attempting suicide and than some man floated over to me and knocked me off of a cliff into this vortex and bam. I'm in this bed eating this delicious chowder. Which "he added slyly "I wouldn't mind getting more of...” she happily jumps up and fetches some more.

    When she returns she tosses him a shirt as well. "As much as I love seeing your amazing body, it would be nice if you would wear this" she says sarcastically. After weaseling his way into the shirt he sets into bowl two of this soup. "So you fell into a vortex and ended up here in this forest?" She asks timidly. "Yep that’s what happened" he says dismissively.

            "Hmmm" he looks up and sees she is deep in thought. "Is something wrong?" he asks in a worried tone. She hurriedly puts on a smile and accidentally whispers "of course not why would you ask that" adding a not so believable laugh she puts the chair back against the wall and takes his empty bowl. "You get more rest. Just call when you wake up. Oh and what's your name?" she asks in a daze. "Jade and you are?" "Vicky. Nice to meet you Jade" She hurries from the room with the bowl and spoon.

1st entry random poem

2007-08-21T11:08:40Z

No idea where this came from I believe its when I was going through a bad time with my ex boyfriend

The pain inside,
Is coming out.
Nowhere to hide,
I need to shout.
"Get away from me,
Save yourself"
My emotions on the shelf

I keep just one
The one I hate
Its a monster
My soul it ate.

I lost myself
I couldn't find
The good in me
It destroyed my mind

I lived inside
The pain until
I found a friend
upon a hill
She said to me
That its okay
I didnt feel
The monster that day

She locked him up
inside of me
Thats how I realized
She was the key
The key to my
Light and dark
She had the key to my heart.

I think it's about vicky